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awakening, detransition, education, gender variant, retransition, trans issues

I See You

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Soul searching is one of the most painful self discovery a person can undertake. No amount of therapy in my opinion can fortify you with the deepest discovery of finding you. We go through life building walls, hiding who we truly are in order to protect ourselves, not realizing the damage we are actually creating with in our psyche and mind.

As a child we learn real quick how to hide our inner truth in the quest of belonging to a group and be seen. We engage in behavior that may not feel comfortable, surround  ourselves with people, habits and careers that may not be at all in alignment with our true intent. So we grow up resentful, angry, fearful and over all unhappy.

It is important to stay real to our soul purpose, to understand what we are all about, not what others want us to be like. I have learn the hard way, and my path has been painful. I have done things to please others, and to feel like I belong. Creating an image that slowly became angry and full of ego. I can tell you now that feeling was not good, I lived a lie, in order to feel accepted and looked up to. But instead I ended up hurting many people, and I will forever regret my actions, words and disrespect to a community that did not deserve my belittling actions and words.

We each have a journey to take, maybe mine had a purpose, albeit, I wish I would have been kinder, but I believe now by returning to my truth, I can help heal and mend the damage I created. In addition, help others question their truth and over all create a space where people can talk freely without ego and defensiveness. People are hurting, there are so many reasons for this, but we need to realize that no one pain is more important than another. We all matter. I want to say to all in the LGBT community, to our allies and to those who do not agree with who we are, or  who we try to be, find a space in your heart that allows you to come from a compassionate source, don’t point fingers or create a judgment. Instead, reach deep and try to feel the pain of others by simply remembering the pain you have experienced in your life before. Pain is pain, let us learn to see each other through the eyes of love. To all, I want to say that I see me now, and  I can now see you.

I love you but remember to love yourselves too

Ritz

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About Mark Angelo Cummings

Mark Angelo Cummings is a spiritual soul and a follower of "The Christ Consciousness", a broadcaster, musician, writer, and educator. As a Certified Nutritional Consultant, Master Personal Trainer and Occupational Therapist, he has taken wellness one step further. Check out our website http://www.gypsybluenomads.com/ Follow our journey: The Travels of 2-Two Spirited Nomads and Their Car

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4 thoughts on “I See You

  1. Like you, my journey has taken me to the scale dipping all the way to the opposite side in order to reach true balance. I am lucky that I transitioned in England where you must live for two full years as the gender of choice for 2 full years before they will accept you for hormones and surgery. I was also lucky that I knew I wasn’t penis material and ruled out phalioplasty very early on. Only having had chest surgery which I am happy with( I was a 44 DD) and taken T which I am also happy with for other reasons than male secondary characteristics. It is so amazing and I feel so blessed that you are someone who was a big voice in the Transworld now able to rethink. You are an inspiration to many very confused people. I love you Ritz.

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    Posted by EddySue | January 18, 2016, 6:54 pm
  2. Soul-searching and Self discovery is one hell of a roller coaster ride that we must take alone.

    Maritza, continue walking tall and and strong.

    Much Love & Peace

    HarloweRayne🌀

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    Posted by thunderwordzpress | January 19, 2016, 9:34 am

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