Transitioning has been a tool for my spiritual growth. I have learned so many things about me, from my likes and dislikes, to my inner most needs. Transitioning has also helped me through my asbergers and other behavioral issues that were brought into the forefront while facing many of the challenges in my life. I know I still have may things to work through, but I feel that I have finally been able to come full circle.
The many relationships I have had as Mark were challenging and there to help me evolve and grow as a human being. I have faced many dark nights and issues that I did not want to see, but was forced to, but grateful they happened. I have now learn that I am the most important person and that I don’t need to place myself second anymore. I am worthy of love and to be loved and will not settle for anything less. My childhood traumas no longer control me, or take charge. I will now live for me and treasure my heart and soul. I have always needed to be the healer and in healing, I tried to control things and people in my life, when all in all I can only control myself and my actions. I will work on me and continue on my healing path.
I have learn several things about myself on this journey, first, that I have a feminine side that needs nurturing. Second, that I don’t have to please anyone but myself, and lastly that life is too precious to be trying to fix others, all along I have had to look at my own challenges and issues that by being a healer I was ignoring my own. The time is now and I Maritza Cummings promise myself to no longer be tied to things that are not in the alignment of my healing, no more dependency or co dependency, I am free to be and let others be and to love me for me.
Let the healing begin, let there be peace and love for all that walk this earth, we are all facing challenges and let us all free ourselves from our pain and past.
Love you all, but remember to Love yourselves too