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Who Are We Really?

I find it amusing how the natives get restless when they see a change in opinion, a different view on a perspective and finally to see someone in the tribe that wakes up and starts to speak the TRUTH…..

Yes, yes, I know what you are going to say, you can only speak for yourself there MR Transphobia, as I was told in one of my private messages in Facebook by someone that looks like this:




and has a cover pic of this:



Now Please note this, I am not trying to ridicule or make fun of anyone, promise. I am just trying to open up the eyes of a community that has been hijacked by political groups, the medical system, and have become a harboring  network for those with many mental conditions and fetishes.

To understand transgender is to dig deep into a persons core pain, the need to blend in and finally the urgent pain to be “normal”.  There are no objective and plausible findings that can every say a person is born wrong. You may have genitals  that are different as most intersex individuals do as well as reproductive anomalies that are not fully developed or have some sort of incongruence, but trans people are not intersex (many try to push themselves into this category, anything to find acceptance and pity) but in the end the born in the wrong body scenario is bogus to say the least and harmful to a person who already has to deal with self image and esteem issues.

Most trans women are individuals who have been told they suck at being a man, are feminine men who have been ridiculed, others may not have not had a fulfilling life, are bored, depressed and yes, just want to have fun, as said one of the many individuals who is struggling with transitioning and follow Lynna and I, hoping we can be their life line:

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There is nothing glamorous about transitioning there is way too much to lose, all to realize something that is impossible. Yes, I know many do it, and seem pretty happy, but I have yet to find an individual who is really complete after transitioning. Most find themselves alone, now a prisoner to the trans camp political drive, hopefuls with the modeling and acting world, and in the end, they stand in front of the mirror watching the wrinkles unfold, the lonely nights and new found diseases and problems they thought they got rid of but instead intensified with the altering of their genitals and life long hormonal regimens that now will have them face many new health problems.  Transitioning is not the cure all, medical transitioning the death of a person, more commit suicide after transitioning than those that don’t.

So many are unhappy with their results and in the end realize that it was not at all the goods they were sold and promised, many decide to hide away as hermits while they slowly die alone somewhere never to be found. The new kids on the block are happy, enjoying their new “boobs”, yes that is the name many trans women use for their new version of a middle age crisis boat or sports car attainment as now they have a pair to play with at any time. But many fail to hear about the many horror stories that happens with their new toy, the body rejects it, and shortly their new toy has to be removed. The novelty wears off and soon boredom sets in again, the impulsive behavior reignites and more irresponsible behaviors is seen, a vicious cycle most addicts demonstrate, going from one addiction to another.

Are you worth so little and are your fantasies and crossdreaming desires greater than the love of self? Are you not cognizant enough to realize that what you are embarking on is not natural, you were meant to be who you are, a special soul here on this planet to shine your light, just as you are. You don’t need to fit into boxes try to create the woman you see in your head, she will never really be, it is all a dream, and not all dreams are meant to be made reality. I know little boys who grow up to be men are told they can be whomever they want to be, mothers raise their kids to feel they are the center of the universe, but please realize that what you are doing is destroying the lives of many, that wife, those kids that relied on you, are now left to fend for themselves. I know you struggle day in and day out, I know there is pain in your hearts, but so many hurt too and all because of you. Now I am not trying to make you feel guilty, remorseful or cause you anymore pain than you already have. I just want you to realize what you are doing and wake up from the dream.

My Lynna struggles everyday because of her decision, she has had to work through those pains, doing the work to heal the core pain we created from our past is the real work, going under the knife and altering your bodies will not solve the real problem, trust me, we are all hurting, transition is not the cure, nor the solution it is a maladaptive way of dealing with the true issues. Even if your family appears to be on board, realize what you are doing to their world, the ridicule you are putting them through the sets of mental problems you are giving them, all because your fantasy was more important than their reality.

We are not the enemy here as many in this community think, there needs to be a voice for those who we have hurt, for those who are battling transitioning and all they hear are cheerleaders filling their heads with lies and false hopes. This decision to transition may have been right for you, you say, I hope you are right, but as statistics have it, and as the pattern that I have seen for the time that I have been involved in this community, I can say its only a matter of time before your inner voice speaks out, and then and only then will you understand our need to raise awareness on this topic that has taken the world for a train ride.

For those wondering if we are detransitioning or what is our motive here, I take life day to day, I tried detransitioning last year and failed twice, we plan to live life as healthy physically and emotionally as we possibly can. The beginning of healing is to make peace with our biological reality, then to try to find forgiveness for what we have done to ourself and to others, then with each passing day, we access how this healing is going, I am in the now, and right now, I am healing, part of my healing is speaking out. The yo-yoing is not healthy either, I am me, a woman whose life took her where she is today, no breast, no female reproductive organs, a full beard, lots of love and pain in her heart. I am blessed that I found the love of my life, who shares my same journey, and who loves me for me. Together we will try to help others heal and try to understand the mess we created.


Till next time






About Mark Angelo Cummings

Maritza/Mark is walking the path of healing, she/he is a broadcaster, musician, writer, and educator. As a Certified Nutritional Consultant, Master Personal Trainer and Occupational Therapist, she/he has taken wellness one step further. Check out our website http://www.gypsybluenomads.com/ Follow our journey: The Travels of 2 Truth Seeker and Their Car. Check out our live Programing Tues & Thurs @ 6 PM MT on RealTalk With The Cummings https://www.youtube.com/c/GypsyBlueNomads


3 thoughts on “Who Are We Really?

  1. Thanks for this. I am glad you both are still trying to work this out in your minds, hearts and lives. I have noticed that the trans-cult-industry intensely pushes the mantra of “self-acceptance,” but by that they mean “self-acceptance as a transgender person,” or even self-acceptance “as” the opposite sex. This is a self-hypnotic hook that leads inexorably to synthetic hormones, drastic surgeries, outbursts of narcissistic rage and all the rest. By now it would be considered a “hate crime” to counsel someone: “Accept yourself as you are, because man cannot become a woman and a woman cannot become a man.” This does not mean at all that a man can’t represent himself in a “feminine” way, or a woman in a “masculine” way. However, transgender people who cultivate understanding of this might not feel so “driven” to undergo medicalized, aestheticized self-mutilation. If you are healthy and your body works as it should do, it’s always good if you can avoid starting dangerous lifelong drug regimens and having massive surgeries.

    What’s really bizarre is the “self-acceptance” of Christian transgender people who justify their transgenderism and its usual medical procedures as “God’s will.” They say that because God meant for them to feel like the opposite sex, they should go ahead and get all the hormones & surgeries, because God wants them to do that. We saw this a few months ago with the bilateral mastectomy of that 14 year old girl in San Diego (born with fetal alcohol syndrome; also an adoptee). The stupid adoptive “father” was quoted as saying: “God has plans for everybody, and this is how it develops.” They may not realize it, but what these foolish people (and other transgender Christians) are really saying is: “God made a mistake. This child’s body is ‘wrong.’ Luckily, we have all kinds of technology to fix God’s f*ck-up.”

    But does God make mistakes? Most Christians would say no.

    You mention the above the term “crossdreaming,” which is another word for autogynephilia, which is a fancy word for the erotic charge felt by most men who want to “become women.” In a way, though, crossdreaming is a good word, because it captures the “dreaming” aspect of transgenderism in both men and women. The dream-state is believed as real and is reinforced by authoritative statements as well as addiction and repetition. Everyone is walking in a dream, a hallucinatory trance, and the most crazy, backwards, outlandish things are believed to be possible, indeed normal. Global culture exists in sort of a mega-trance anyway, with multitudinous & fierce “denial” going deeper than the oceans and higher than the moon, but transgenderism has its own plastic-fantastic dream-niche

    We are all in pain. Many of us are deeply, deeply wounded from early life. Very few of us reach deeply enough within ourselves to explore and understand our pain. That itself is a lifelong process, a super painful process but a healthy one. Instead, we may think we’re doing it (while dilly-dallying on the fringes), or make gestures toward going deep, or do it for a while, but then give up. It’s much more “stunning and brave” to persevere with that work than it is to have an orchiectomy or mastectomy because of “dysphoria” — which is really just a symptom of these unresolved deep issues. But there is so much pressure now on suffering “dysphoric” women and men to take the consumer choice of transgenderism — and almost no effort to actually help them understand real conditions — I suppose it’s hardly possible to keep life real, especially for young folks.

    Anyway, thanks again.

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    Posted by AWESOME CAT | August 26, 2016, 3:41 am
    • Yes, the word crossdreamer fits the trans community well, as they do whatever it takes to make their supposed dream a reality and anyone that gets in their way a dream stealer. The sad thing is, that as they dream and destroy their lives and the lives of others they forget that one day, their lives will reach a point of judgment, where as they age, they will have to confront the choices they made, and reflect on all they did, just to chase a dream.

      As you said, a man can’t be a women and a woman can’t be a man, why would society allow this to take place is beyond me. Why has the medical community lost all integrity and has stopped following the mantra of do no harm. There needs to be true help, we had a show talking about the false self, this Tuesday and how core pain leads to creating this condition. Any way thanks for reading my blog, we hope to get through to many, and hope that we can all begin healing, God knows we need to.

      Much Love


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      Posted by Mark Angelo Cummings | August 26, 2016, 4:41 am

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