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Breaking It Down


I have an eminent desire to understand gender dysphoria and why people go to the extreme they do, in order to alter their bodies and live out a need they have, and express it as life or death.   I have known a lot of people with disabilities working as an Occupational Therapist, people who deal with real physical and emotional pain beyond their altruistic nature, yet they adapt, work towards improvement and accept their disabilities.

In retrospect, I can only go by the years I lived in the LGB community where the T was none existent or did not create such noise that their cause trumps over all. We had female impersonators, gay men who were very feminine, then you had the cross dressers who on occasion would venture out and fit right in the gay crowd, but transsexuals were not well known or seen. You had the few sex changes you heard about, but usually, these were individuals with Chromosome anomalies or intersex conditions in need of repair, but what we are seeing today is just not kosher in my humble opinion. Hormonal imbalances and different personalities do not warrant the cascade of events we are seeing, the notion of born in the wrong body and a medical system who has created a market that they can benefit from is incredibly sadistic and wrong.

I can only say what I feel as a person who has lived the trans life and been around countless of individuals who claim the same thing that I have. Where did I come up with all of this information, the same information we all feed our gender specialist, the same information that is now written in a one size fits all protocol?  Well, the internet, there were a few trans men who had websites and seem to be following the same script we all now follow. The I knew when I was 3-7 years of age, yet our memories do not coincide with those around us, we seem to have created a memory where none existed all to justify our “condition”. The I can’t live or go on if I don’t change my sex line, seems funny to me now, since before I found out about the trans narrative, I had never really thought about killing myself, but then all of a sudden the thought entered my mind and I too felt the same way, using the same scripted material we all are taught to tell our therapist. Why is it that other people who threaten with suicide get baker acted and placed on heavy medication, and trans people are given a green light for hormones and surgery?

I have an immense desire to crack this code, push for truth and no more stroking and lying from medical professionals who are just using us and enabling us to destroy our lives and the lives of others. I break it all down and I see how crazy this whole thing sounds. Men and women who lived a normal life for years, all of a sudden are obsessed with changing their gender, paying for surgeries that will break bones in their faces, create a wound where the genital once was, and ingest large amounts of meds in the illusion that it will make them the opposite gender. People who even after they do all they can do to accomplish their fantasy, continue to be plagued with depression, anger, frustration, and overall sense of dissatisfaction, what is it all for, and who are we fooling really?

I have transitioned and de-transitioned several times now, I have learned that once you enter this twilight zone, life will never be the same. The years of hormones, surgeries, legal name changes, which by the way it is virtually impossible to change back, all leaves you in the land of the lost. I say to the professionals, please stop promoting this as a true solution, it’s not, it will never be, gender is not that important really, we as a society have bigger problems to deal with than to worry about who is born with an innie or an outy. Women are being sexualized even further by trans women (this really angers me), and the lack of respect we as individuals are showing for each other based on gender identity is really creating a further divide between men and women.

Let’s be truthful for once, say you don’t want to be the gender you were born as, it’s your choice, you don’t have to create such a dramatic event to do so.  Don’t be disrespectful to the real gender and claim you are the same, you can’t and won’t be, it’s just facts. Live life and be happy, you don’t see those cosmetic surgery candidates saying if they don’t get a new nose to fit their face, they will ice themselves. You don’t see people who don’t like what they see in the mirror, want the world to revolve around them. It’s your life live it, but remember the world does not revolve around you. The validation and push for the world to accept and see you as you wish is not only disrespectful but getting annoying in the least. You are no different than Christians who push their beliefs on others. This world is big enough for all to live and co-exist, let’s stop being a point of politics for those who are using our cause to their advantage. Now live and let live.


Till Next Time


Mark Angelo


About Mark Angelo Cummings

Maritza/Mark is walking the path of healing, she/he is a broadcaster, musician, writer, and educator. As a Certified Nutritional Consultant, Master Personal Trainer and Occupational Therapist, she/he has taken wellness one step further. Check out our website http://www.gypsybluenomads.com/ Follow our journey: The Travels of 2 Truth Seeker and Their Car. Check out our live Programing Tues & Thurs @ 6 PM MT on RealTalk With The Cummings https://www.youtube.com/c/GypsyBlueNomads


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