okay, so I have been using my blog and YouTube channel to vent, to tell my story as well as to document my crazy life. So now I will share with you what has transpired since we transitioned back to Mark and Lynna. The overwhelming push from the Christian community that was watching us like hawks actually created a rebound and led us to realize that we were doing it for (detransition) all the wrong reasons. Many of you may or may not know the story of Lynna and how her ex-spouse refuses to allow Lynna to have contact with her kids which consisted of only a phone call every other week. Lynna has suffered throughout her transition because her ex-spouse has made Lynna’s life a living hell. She turned Lynna’s kids against her and with the Christian upbringing and continual Christian lifestyle that her ex-spouse’s and family follow, has done nothing less than create emotional trauma and turmoil for Lynna and now my life.
Her ex-wife wanted to take Lynna to the cleaners by asking for 4 types of alimony and basically wanted to hurt Lynna financially as well as emotionally. Well, long story short, Lynna as most of you know was involved in a terrible accident which has not allowed her to resume her career as a camera operator, so needless to say, her ex’s plan of total annihilation was a bit thrown off course. Karma can be a SOB at times, and as Lynna’s ex once said, “you are only a paycheck to me”, well that kind of went south for her, yet I quickly learned how Christianity works, these are words of a loving Christian woman, who by the way, was not at all glad to see her ex-return to christ or that Lynna had also brought me to Christ. No, not at all, her vengeance and hatred towards us were more important, and continuing to keep the kids away from us, her main goal.
On the biweekly phone calls, the kids lack off interest to speak to their father is heartbreaking, it is always a one-sided conversation, which shows no love interest on their side, my Lynna has suffered so much in the hands of these individuals who have no true love in their heart and only really miss the “gig” they had with “Paul” their dad. They love the memory but not the real person Lynna is, they love the road trips and the lifestyle Lynna gave them as part of her career, but not the person Lynna is today. I for one, am tired of sitting back and watching my Lynna fall apart because of the treatment she has received from not only her family, mother, sister included, but from her so called Christian friends who were not very welcoming and pretty much still resentful and oh yes, wanted Lynna to hit a reset button and return to Cheryl.
If I seem angry or resentful, I am. I underwent painful laser treatment, wanted Lynna to find happiness with her kids so I went along with the de-transitioning bit, not once but 3 times, all to find out that the kids hate me, the eldest has even threatened me, my heart was broken when I read the text that referred to me as a “whore” and telling his father that we would end up breaking up and that he would make sure, he would make our lives a living hell. This all from a “Christian” attending a Christian college. These kids do not realize how much I have done for their father, I nursed Lynna back to health, have been her only unconditional love connection which has been her salvation, she has had to learn to deal with so much rejection and abandonment, something no one should ever have to experience.
I am beside myself, not only have a placed my health in danger, the laser treatment has now created a patchy beard growth, I lost a ton of muscle mass for being off Testosterone and God knows what chains of events I have set on my hormonal profile. My emotional health has been affected, dealing with Lynna’s baggage that stems from the rejection of her kids and friends.
The roller coaster ride we have been on, all for these kids, to include alienating the LGBT community, was not worth it, and now I am bitter and resentful. I know I will work through it all, and my love for Lynna and Lynna for me will keep us focus on what matters and that is us. I am sick and tired of people trying to instill guilt, especially these holier than thou Christians. So I say to you, and you know who you are, stop, stop already with all of your self-righteous bull shit. We are going to live our lives whether you like it or not. Either you all get with the program, or you can just tune out.
Till Next Time
Mark Angelo Cummings