A recovering trans person is going through a lot of challenges that are imperative to their mental and physical health. Like a recovering addict, withdrawals are part of the equation.
Desisting comes in stages and one must learn to be gentle with self. I want changes to happen yesterday, but I must be realistic to the changes that will and will not take place.
I will always have a deeper voice than your average female, my facial structure will always have a manly shape to it. I will have facial and body hair as well as balding on my head to deal with. I ask people to be gentle with my appearance, manurisms, and how I express myself. I can’t force these changes to happen and I must learn to accept myself and the changes that have occurred. In fact what lead me to transition in the first place was the judgement of who and how I presented as a human.
I feel that the healing will take place, now that I am no longer on hormones, I don’t identify as male but instead as a woman, I feel that I will be alright.
One day at a time, one healing moment at a time, I Maritza will get through this with the help of my husband and my creator.
A trans identified person is hurting and feel that the trans narrative will be the answer to their problems. I’m here to say it will not, you may not agree but as someone who has lived this life and have witness the life of many others, the pain cannot be relieved by altering who we were born as.
Be free of addictions and affliction, till next time